I think I thunk: "It's for a special day" syndrome


 Disclaimer: *This is an unedited voice of my mind, raw and totally me!*

Oh god! I cannot imagine I have been MIA for over 2 months and then chose today to write a topic that I have been ruminating for over 1.5 months. I want to say all positive things like 'better late than never' but I also want to take a moment to acknowledge that staying consistent is not my strong suit AND IT's OKAY! (I recently learnt that consistency is overrated for a person suffering from anxiety)

Anywhoo!! I also want to pat on my back here and say I have been experimenting something all this while before writing and preaching this myself! One day I woke up and I thought (because that's what I do, duh!) why do we always save best things for a special day??? How does saying 'today is that special day' feels like?

In a world of constant conflict between 'you need to save for a rainy day' vs 'you only live once (YOLO)', there is a third wheel by name 'Special day' that creeps up. We want to save our best outfit for a special day for either when we lose that extra 5 kilos or for an upcoming birthday/anniversary, we want to save our expensive shoes for a date night, we want to save our branded perfumes for an event that we deem special and keep using our deodorants to get about daily work, we want to save that one jewelry piece for some occasion that never comes (I still have my swarovski from 2 years ago un-worn in my wardrobe), we want to get dressed up and put some make up when we are stepping out of the house (oh don't mistake me, I love to live in my PJs/shorts), we want to open that best wine/champagne bottle when we achieve "something". I call it "It's for a special day" syndrome, I had that! Do you have it as well?? (It's more common than you think)

I used to be an IFSD person before March'2025 and this thought somehow brought a shift in how I feel about everyday life. In a way, I am telling myself everyday that today is not special and it does not deserve a new piece of clothing/expensive perfume/a new piece of earring.

Then...I also had an other thought (surprise!!). What if I am not alive tomorrow morning??? What happens to all my perfumes/dresses and earrings?? Who will take them??? But, I won't wear them!!! (Okay, I had more than one thought. Gee, thanks!)

You know there is always this moment of epiphany after which you feel like a new person??? (I feel like a new person every 2 months, that is for another blog) Yeah that! I started dressing up randomly for home office, showing up at work in my best executive presence (If you are seeing my IG photos you'd know what I am talking about). Just bringing out all the clothes that I fit in as of now and wear them (Yass queeen!!). I don't know if it is coincidental, but I just finished that one bottle of YSL Libre perfume today (Damn right, your gurrlll used it all up in 2 months!). I am my main character energy at home and there is a full fledged Bigg boss happening in my head (Indian reference - Bigg boss is Indian version of big brother). 

What did this serve me? It served me confidence in showing up at work. People started noticing my earrings at work and I do have a work fan who asks about every new earring I wear. I noticed that people do notice!! It also bifurcated when my work day ends and when my home begins, great mental trick to separate work and home when you are working remotely. It just helped me get so much validation about myself (please now, if you don't care about that kind of stuff you're just BSing me!!). I just started to CARE about me more than before and it just is one of the many ways that constantly reminds me that I care about me!!!

If you are reading this blog patiently all this while, you should also know that I am a queen of inconsistency (like I said earlier, IT'S OKAY). Did I always feel like I should dress up to the nines everyday? No! Every time I felt that way, I asked this question to myself, is it because this is for a special day or because today I do not feel like it? If the answer is - special day, then I would talk myself into why today is special (I am alive and I woke up today alive!!!). I also have my husband as a great accountability partner (BTW - He started using his YSL perfume to work and bought 100 euros worth new clothes after I told this theory, thus far it has not been an economical theory) on the days I need that extra push. He would say "you could dress up for that important meeting you have!" or he just shows up in a great outfit and I'd be like, now I gotta be dressing up better than him (gurrll gotta look hot!)

If the answer is - I don't feel like it, THAT my friends is a whole another topic. I don't go about irritating the irritated. I am annoying not stupid!! I just say Okay and move on with the day!!! But most of the days I showed up pretty for myself and I feel like I am on to something here!!

At the end of all this rant, I want to philosophically end it and ask, - Are we living today or for a special day? and Would you still do same things as you did today if you'd know there's no tomorrow?

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